User blog comment:Thewritersdiary/Major Season 3 Death/@comment-5953261-20151125200909/@comment-26500342-20151126000023

That's sort of where I'm at right now. I don't want it to be Octavia, but if the alternative is Bellamy or Clarke. . . I have to ask myself who I would rather go. You know?

As for your last point, that's true as well. Him being upset could simply be situational (if someone sacrificed themself for him) and not personal. Although I do think that if he were affected the most, the death would be from someone he really cared about. Or maybe he is forced to kill someone he knows (like Clarke with Finn)?

Ugh, why do I torture myself?