Talk:John Murphy/@comment-91.69.84.173-20150106174316/@comment-25869525-20150109033305

Also: [He is shown to have a kinder side, caring for Raven on her near deathbed, although he says it's only because he doesn't want to be alone when he himself dies- showing he is selfish and self-driven.]

I think he gave a glib reply. claiming he simply didn't want to die alone was a front.

When people get it in their minds that you are a certain way (selfish jackass with anger issues and a tendency towards vilence, in Murphy's case), they take it very badly when you try to dispel those illusions/delusions they have about you. Murphy knows full well how he is thought of. Maybe he just sees the futility of trying to convince anyone he is anything other than what they've decided to convince themselves he is. Especially with Raven (whom he said that too, about not wanting to die alone). He's not stupid. He knows it'd be easier to try walking to the moon, than to try convincing Raven he's not a complete bastard. When he showed up at the dropship right after Raven shot that grounder that had come in, Raven tried to shhot him, and would have if not for a problem wit the gun. As he said: "I don't blame you. I would have shot too." He understands why Raven would hate him; he accepts that as a result of what he did.

So, I see Murphy now, as someone who know people are going to think what they want to about him, no matter what he does. He knows, he could single handedly save the lives of every single person at Camp Jaha, along with rescuing the 48 in Mt Weather, and Raven will still want to see him dead, Clarke will still despise him, along with several others.

Once people have their lie about you in their heads, it is nearly impossible to get them to admit anything other than that.